All the pain I went through this summer with Lily was just wholly evaporated yesterday in this one gorgeous moment. We were driving in Andrea’s beast of a car and had pulled off I-5 onto the Exit for Lewis & Clark. There was a purple cord hanging from the sound system that I hadn’t paid attention to the day before. I said, what is that for? Lily said, it’s an aux input cord. Wordlessly, she plugged her phone into it and cued up a song. A great song—the perfect song. I said, how did we not notice that yesterday? She said, I noticed it, but we wanted to each listen to different things.
We were still separated then.
The road is full of curves and we were lumbering around the curves seeing the first signs for ‘Lewis & Clark College’. My heart swelled, I could feel tears in my throat. Relief, gratitude, pride, honor, sadness, happiness. Thank you God. Past a little village with a Starbucks and back into the curves. Lush, gorgeous trees…roundabouts. I said, ‘Are you happy?’. She said, “So happy”. She said, “I know which parking lot we want, I’ll tell you when we get close.” I said, “Feels different than last year, hm?” Yes. Yes, it does. Everything feels different.